Reminisce ..

Thu 11, Aug, 2011 
7:24pm 


Waitress: Are u ready order ?
Girl: yes, .. One Taro Smoothie 
Waitress: ok, dear .. anything else ?
Girl: No .. *smile*
Waitress: Oh, by the way, I've never seen him with you these days .. how has he been ? 
Girl: Oh .. umm, who ? who're u talking abt ? My brother ? *she knew it but she didnt want to admit it*
Waitress: The one who is always with you, the one with the glasses..
Girl: Oh .. well, umm .. * speechless*
Waitress: Is he busy or he comes in, at a different time ?
Girl: oh, yes ... maybe he comes in, at a different time  *broken smile* 
Waitress: Oh, I see .. *left the table* 
Girl: *face down & whispering* and he's no longer with me .. thanks for asking. 

speaking my heart out thru songs ..

gone mad for alittle while ... :)

Forever VSLN: She's my friend

Forever VSLN: She's my friend: "She's my friend... She's understand me by just looking into my eyes. She's finish my sentences and know what I like. She's know me ..."

a very closed friend of mine ..
with loves,
I love you, budd :)

.. I miss you

[... Everyday I hope and wish you were here with me ..
It hurts that you can't be ..
If I could turn back all the hands of time ..
You'll still be mine ..

Everyday I hope and wish I could have known better 
so I'd cherish the time we had together ..
instead of thinking of you who had been gone, 

while I'm here all alone..

Everyday I wish I could call you, 
so that I could have you to talk to
but someone took you away from me ..
and all I could say is "Rest in peace" ..]

References: Unknown

To let go .. -sigh-

To let go isnt to forget, not think about, or ignore ..

it doesnt leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret.

letting go isnt winning and it isnt losing ..

it's not about the pride and it's not about how you appear.

and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past.

letting go isnt blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts,

and doesnt leave emptiness, hurt or sadness ..

it's not giving up or giving in ..

letting go isnt about loss, and it's not defeat.

To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome to move on.

it is having an open mind and confidence in the future.

letting go is accepting.

It is learning and experiencing and growing.

To let go is to be thankful for experiences that made you laugh, made you cry and made you grow ... 

it's about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain. 

letting go is having the courage to accept changes, and the strength to keep moving on.

letting go is growing up. 

It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. 

To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and to set yourself .. free

... Alone

I didnt want to admit it, 

it was easier to lie, 
and hide the hurt and emptiness, 

to smile instead of cry. 

I didnt want to face the fact, 

my life is full of pain,
and I long to stop my bleeding heart .. 

and maybe try to smile again, 

because I feel oh-so-forgotten, 

so betrayed and so alone ..

without a trace of forgiveness,

and no soul to call my own. 

I didnt want to admit the fact, 

i cannot spread my wings, 

and my happiness has melted, 
into tears and other painful things.
it's hard for me to hide the fact, 

my wishes have no home, 

and return to anguish, 

bow my head and cry alone ..